supplemental income. I really don’t want to get back into a desktop support role. I’m so out of the with much of the new technology and my knowledge of Windows is essentially prehistoric. I might like being paid to write Bash scripts. The idea of being beholden to a schedule seems disagreeable as well.
I miss being a contented atheist. I enjoyed not believing in a god and not having to deal with religion very much. Then I got sucked into the establishment of a church a few years ago, and while that experience has confirmed my non-belief, it’s also been quite stressful. My stress levels have gone down since I began minimizing my participation. Currently, the extent of my involvement is to take attendance during the services. I try to get the count as quickly as possible, so I can sequester myself in a room where I can’t hear it. I’d love it they could find someone else to do it. They seem to assume I’m going to take attendance even if I’m not there.
I think my wife is also feeling like the church takes us for granted and assume we will always be there doing what we do. This Sunday is supposed to be her last day as the chair of the reception committee which has the primary responsibility for the post-service dinner. Someone has already been named to take over but I’m sure they’ll depend on her to get things done.
I’ve been growing quite weary of everyone’s presumption of my beliefs. I get the feeling that everybody is oblivious to my lack of participation. Do they think that whenever I disappear, I’m praying or reading the Bible? In the coming year, I’ll be doing what I can to further distance myself from religion. The more I’m exposed to it, the less I want to do with it. I abandoned my presumption of belief years ago.
That brings me to the subject of funerals. I don’t remember how many I attended but three stand out. Two were graveside services at the VA cemetery and I liked them becuase there were short, to the point, and meaningful. The third one was for a young man who happened to have been a veteran. The only way I knew he was a vet was because I saw pictures of him in uniform. It was never mentioned during the service. In fact, I learned nothing about the deceased from the service. The service was a church sermon and the pastor went on and on about “Daddy God.” That’s a phrase that makes me want to wretch. I do believe that it was the first time I have ever walked out of a funeral. I meant no disrespect for the deceased or his family; I walked out out of respect for the deceased and myself. Not only did I feel the young man in the casket was disrespected, I felt I was disrespected as well. For post on that particular funeral service, see A Depressing Funeral.
What does 2024 hold for me? Will the Republicans gain more power? If they manage to return to the Oval Office, will that mark the end of democracy and the beginning of a Christian dictatorship? To be honest, I don’t hold out much hope for the sustainibility of the Democratic Party. There seems to be a lack of strong leadership as well as a lack of focus.
As for me, I’ll keep chugging along, doing the best I can with what I’ve got.